Adventures Of Wildboar: Thinking aloud
Monday, October 10, 2005
「 invaded it on 2:38 AM 」
I dont usually tell people my most inner feelings. But I have to find someplace to release my frustration, hurt, joy and comments. I decided that this should be the place...

This thing called LOVE. To me, many people have abused this word. How much do you know about the person after a few days, weeks to declare you love the person. Love and Like is very different. Like is usually physical attraction, which develope into a relationship and from there Love is developed. (Of cos there are different kinds of love e.g parental love, siblings love, friendships, etc. But I am talking abt BGR and MWR).

Wat should I do to find myself a galfriend? I do not know. Each time I thought I found "The One" but it was not to be. They become somebody else "One". Is it due to lack of effort? Or lack of feelings? Lack of communication? Understanding? Insensitivity? I am really lost. I am really tired. I am sick. Why do I always become the "Good Friend"? Am I really just someone to confide in? I can do all those "Fancyful" things that other guys do, but do they do it consistently once they become a couple? I doubt so. I had my fair share of gals hinting to me that they like me, but I find it difficult to accept gals whom I am not interested in. How sia? All I want to is find someone whom I like, to take care of her, to love her, to be there for her all the time. Is it so difficult?

I am afraid of telling someone that I like her. I dont want to end up hurting myself again. Cos each time I do that, I end up hurting myself. I would rather be a guardian angel by her side. Taking care of her, making sure she is happy and consoling her when she is sad. Liking someone is not about all possession. Although I would prefer to be her "Special One", I would rather to see her happy with someone else then being unhappy with me and thinking of someone else.

I have alot of things to say, but i cant put it into word right now. I wont let my emotions take over me. I should go and take a rest now.