Adventures Of Wildboar
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
「 invaded it on 3:09 PM 」
I feel terrible, I feel bad. I woke up with a throat full of flam. From past experience, the flam is there because my body pushing out all the toxins in my system. It has been 10 days since I last touched a fag. I have lost my appetite. Ya, I am still eating but I am eating for the sake of eating. I lost the joy of eating, all the food taste the same.

I feel like a zombie. Every week is the same. Going to school for lessons to get a piece of paper after 3 years, but end up getting more confused. Going to work at night while my friends are enjoying the night out. But I have to work, I got my bills to pay, my policies to pay and my stomach to feed. Suffer now, enjoy later.

On Monday, we were playing soccer and Natalie was watching Wayne play. Memories begin to flood my mind. I miss the days we used to play soccer everyday and Germs would be there watching. I dont know if she was watching me or the whole class. But still it was a great feeling. It has been more than 12 years, but she is one of the reason for my wonderful childhood...

My home is like a hotel and cybercafe. I am just there to sleep every night or sitting in front of the comp. There is nothing much to do at home, my parents are always in front of the TV. My mum is always nagging about the same things and there are things in life you just cant tell your mum. I tried to tell once, but she end up nagging about the same old things. My Dad? He is only concern when I can start working full time again and give him pocket money. My brother? I havent seen much of him since god knows when... I think since 1997 till now I have seen since for about 2-3 years out of the 8. Right now, he got know someone who stays in town area and doesnt go home much.

How come my life sounds so bad ah? Its not that bad actually, just wanna get the bad memories out of my system and retain the good memories in my head.